In my life I have often thought "what the HELL is going on here?!" I usually scream this at the top of my lungs... inside my head :). It seems like I am always trying to look far into the future to see "what is this long term outcome of this decision I am about to make right now?" "what is the best choice for my future?" "Should I stay here and do what I have always done or do I move to something new?" "what happens if I turn left... how bout if I turn right?" The reality of it has always been... things are going to turn out however they are supposed to turn out no matter which way I turn the wheel. Why do we fret so much over the small decisions we make? Sure we have all made bad choices... some more than others :) (not naming any names here but you know who you are :).
I don't bring this up today to be "preachy" but to say... sometimes we are so busy trying to see past the forest... we forget to see the trees. God has put amazing people in my life and recently I have been neglecting them because my life is swirling around my head like a cow in an f5 tornado (you all saw "TWISTER" you know what I mean :). I missed some pretty important things because I couldn't see outside of my own little problems. To my sister whose 40th birthday I missed... I am sorry... I know this does not make it better but I hope I can make it up to you... To my parents who live less than 2 hours away that I haven't seen in over a month... I am sorry... to my best friend Darcy, even though we are hundreds of miles away from each other all it takes is 5 minutes of talking to you on the phone to make me feel better... I am sorry you are always the one who has to initiate that phone call... I am gonna do better... and lastly to My wife who has had to put up with my indecision and waffling and moodiness... I love you and I am TRULY sorry.
My point is... sometimes you just have to let go of all the little stuff and let what's gonna happen happen, and learn to appreciate the amazing and wonderful things and people who make up the "forest" that surrounds you
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