The sounds of the journey

I was thinking today of the many journeys I am on. I am, like all of us, on the global journey of life, I am deep in the trenches of the grad school journey, I have recently embarked on a journey for physical strength and well being, and I am about to embark on the journey toward a new career path, and of course my journey to improve my photography. All of these journeys converged in my brain this morning and I became the most overwhelmed I have ever been. All I could think to myself was "DEAR LORD THERE IS NO WAY I WILL HAVE TIME FOR ALL OF THIS!" It occurred to me that something would surely have to be given up in order to make adequate time for the others. My worst fear was that I would have to give up or back off on my photography in order to be successful at these other endeavors... It is at this point that I began to cry... the one thing I love to do more than almost anything else would have to take a back seat to everything else.

As I often do in these situations I swallowed hard, pulled up my big girl panties and started some studying that I needed to get done today. It was in the middle of this study time that a friend texted me to see if I was interested in hitting the trails with them. I almost sent a text back that informed them of my previous mini nervous break-down and how much I needed to get down and that there was simply NO TIME I AM RUNNING OUT OF TIME... instead I said yes.

As we began our hike my brain was filled with all of those thoughts of how I would no longer have time for all of the things that make me so very awesome. The words kept running through my head like a catchy song that you hate but can't get rid of... maybe something sung by one of the American Idols :) As we walked on and this great friend engaged me in conversation that had nothing to do with any of it, I began to look around and it did not take long for the sounds of my immediate journey into the desert to overpower, drown out, and eventually silence ALL those other voices. It is funny how the sound of your own foot falls and the pounding of your pulse in your head can drown the negative voices that tell you "you CANT". Eventually all I heard was birdsong and footfalls and the sound of the wind through the trees, and I realized that I would simply have to find time to continue being AWESOME.

Thank you dear friend for helping me quiet my mind and put all things in perspective